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Your dating personality profile:
You matched the following traits:
Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to
share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a
conservative candidate.
Athletic - Physical fitness is one of
your priorities. You find the time to work athletic pursuits into your
schedule. You enjoy being active.
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Your date match profile:
You match with men who have following traits:
Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape.
Adventurous
- You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and
experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you
to take risks and do exciting things.
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Your Top Ten Traits, Ranked
1. Liberal
2. Athletic
3. Big-Hearted
4. Religious
5. Adventurous
6. Outgoing
7. Practical
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Traditional
10. Sensual
Your Top Ten Match Traits, Ranked
1. Athletic
2. Adventurous
3. Big-Hearted
4. Religious
5. Intellectual
6. Practical
7. Outgoing
8. Traditional
9. Romantic
10. Wealthy/Ambitious | | |
| Yay! I'm glad that my xanga is still here, and i can use it again.
Summer has been great. I haven't exactly seen everyone i had planned on seeing, but i saw most of my best friends. And i kind of think that if they're good enough friends, they would've done what they could to see me, and not just lil' ol' Alice hectically running up and down California for them! I guess i kind of got tired of the visiting everywhere quick too. Summer is about relaxing, and i think i can honestly say i accomplished that. =D Things are great. I love being home, eating really well, enjoying the California sunshine and my cats. I've managed to keep myself pretty busy for the most part as well. Although i haven't' done NEARLY enough studying or really any... =/ That i think is my only flaw this summer. I'm also in such a good mood because i FINALLY found out what was wrong with my knees, and am starting to get help to fix it. Such a weight off my shoulders.
The only other thing that would make things a lot better would be if Charles could be here too. I miss him so much. I'm really excited to go back so i can see him, but i know I'll be terribly sad to be leaving home again. Everything really does pass by so soon.
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| I'm so tired of being alone. I feel so completely alone. I hate this feeling the most of all feelings. I'm tired of always having meals alone. I feel like Rachel from one of the Friends episodes where they talk about how strange it is to eat alone in public, and how pathetic it is. It's like all my friends here are already 'coupled' or have their own seclusive groups. Everyone has a boyfriend/girlfriend or already has their best friends. Rarely anyone ever asks me to eat with them, or go out with them. And i'm tired of being the third wheel. Why do i have this strange urge to fight this? Why is being alone so unacceptable? I want to be okay with being alone. It shouldn't be such a frightening thing.
Maybe it's because we're afraid. We're afraid of what being alone really means. And it means that we're forced to face nothing, no one else, but ourselves. Most of us are terrified of ourselves. So how does one go about learning how to deal with himself/herself? How do you learn to accept? Is it just a choice you make, or maybe there's a learning process to it. Either way, i wish i knew how to be alone and to be okay.
Lifehouse, Everybody is Someone:
stumbling I fall away it's hard to make a change
easy to be who you are when no one knows your name
walking past the lonely walls with eyes as cold as stone
climb inside the emptiness it's safe when you're alone
don't be alarmed
don't be afraid of what you are
just look around
everybody is someone
everybody is someone
all this time you lived alone without a memory
built your life upon the ground that sinks beneath your feet
step outside the misery for once you feel alive
second chances only come around once in a life
don't be alarmed
don't be afraid of what you are
just turn around
everybody is someone
everybody is someone
don't be alarmed
don't be afraid of what you are
just turn around
everybody is someone
everybody is someone
don't be alarmed
don't be afraid of what you are
just look around
everybody is someone
everybody is someone
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| There you are, and you suddenly realize that you are spending
your whole life just barely getting by. You keep up a good
front. You manage to make ends meed somehow and look OK from the
outside. But those periods of desperation, those times when you
feel everything caving in on you, you keep those to yourself.
You are a mess. And you know it. But you hide it beautifully.
Meanwhile, way down under all that you just know there has got be
some other way to live, some better way to look at the world,
some way to touch life more fully. You click into it by chance
now and then. You get a good job. You fall in love. You win
the game. and for a while, things are different. Life takes on a
richness and clarity that makes all the bad times and humdrum
fade away. The whole texture of your experience changes and you
say to yourself, "OK, now I've made it; now I will be happy".
But then that fades, too, like smoke in the wind. You are left
with just a memory. That and a vague awareness that something is
wrong.
But there is really another whole realm of depth and sensitivity
available in life, somehow, you are just not seeing it. You wind
up feeling cut off. You feel insulated from the sweetness of
experience by some sort of sensory cotton. You are not really
touching life. You are not making it again. And then even that
vague awareness fades away, and you are back to the same old
reality. The world looks like the usual foul place, which is
boring at best. It is an emotional roller coaster, and you spend
a lot of your time down at the bottom of the ramp, yearning for
the heights.
You can't make radical changes in the pattern of your life until
you begin to see yourself exactly as you are now. As soon as you
do that, changes flow naturally. You don't have to force or
struggle or obey rules dictated to you by some authority. You
just change. It is automatic. But arriving at the initial
insight is quite a task. You've got to see who you are and how
you are, without illusion, judgement or resistance of any kind.
You've got to see your own place in society and your function as
a social being. You've got to see your duties and obligations to
your fellow human beings, and above all, your responsibility to
yourself as an individual living with other individuals. And
you've got to see all of that clearly and as a unit, a single
gestalt of interrelationship. It sounds complex, but it often
occurs in a single instant.
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